Obviously this is something that i've let go of for awhile... and all sorts of life has happened in the meantime, but today is the day i pick this back up again. Why not? I don't have enough other commitments do I? :)
I have a new list of goals that I need to try and become more accountable for. I want to be happy for me, and not rely on anyone else (except for maybe my kiddos) to make me happy. I want to raise strong, respectful, courteous, intelligent children that people enjoy being around and think "hey, those children must come from a great home!" and I want our new puppy Maximus to continue to grow and blossom into a great family dog. Right now though, I might settle for not wanting to toss any of them off the balcony from time to time!
I want to finish my associates degree. I have gone to college off and on since I was in the running start program in high school, thats about 11 years now i've been working on a 2 year degree. It might be the round about path, but I'd like to finally finish it.
I've got some serious financial stuff to take care of as well. The idea of being back on my feet and self-sufficient is so appealing. The financial assistance programs I'm on now are so helpful, but its not something I want to lean on for much longer. As weird as it may sound to some, I'm so anxious to be able to pay my bills again, and get some debt taken care of. It has always been an odd feeling of satisfaction to pay bills. I hate how quickly my money goes and that I don't get much time to enjoy it, but I keep looking to the future, because eventually when I don't have to sacrifice an entire paycheck on debt payments life will be so much more enjoyable and less stressful!
Hand in hand with that topic... I think I have a shopping addiction. I'm totally driven by sales and good deals and clearance, OH MY! I'm trying now to delete incoming emails that prompt me to shop online, but I may have to do something drastic soon.
And... if all of this wasn't enough, I've said outloud that I will lose 40-50 pounds. I'm a big girl. I'm over 5'10" and i've got a gigantic chest, but as of right now i'm also in the 230 pound range and I'm not ok with that. My goal is to be under 190. I want to be in better shape, have more energy and feel good about myself and the clothes I can wear. Problem is, I want these things, but I also want the two candy bars I'll eat in one day and all the other junk food I so enjoy.
Thats all for now, I think i've got plenty to work on. Now while my boys are all asleep I need to choose between cleaning, reading my puppy book, homework or napping myself. Decisions, Decisions!
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