I intend for this to be my forum to hold myself accountable.. and possibly have my friends, family and online acquaintances help with that accountability aspect as well. I am in awe of many others in the blogging world, primarily all the family focused super couponers, money savers and deal seekers. Right now I feel like my life has gotten out of control, and instead of just continuing to let it take me on a downward spiral I want to take control back.
I hesitate to say that I've reached the bottom, just out of fear that I'll be knocked down another level and I don't want to call any bluff and find myself anywhere lower than where I feel right now. But whether I say it or not... I've reached some all time lows. I'm without a job (like many others, I know) and have just recently had to apply for public assistance (still, like many others, I know..) but I'm ashamed. And I'm broke. But I still want to live a good life. That doesn't have to mean having the best of everything, I'm ok with going without... but I don't want myself or my kids to feel like we're missing out on life.
I have an opportunity to go see Dave Ramsey in Portland in a week or so and I hope to go. I want to be fired up to find a job, pay off debt and really feel like i'm back on track for success and happiness. I have his Total Money Management book too... probably I should read that, lol!
I'm going to break this first blogging session up into a few entries tonight. Next to come (after the kiddos are both in bed) is my goal setting... short & long term. If I can focus on some obtainable goals I know that will help. I'm tired of living in the dumps (emotionally speaking, my apartment really isn't that bad!) I'm tired of feeling worthless. I'm tired of being unhappy. I'm only a month in to being a recipient of TANF and already tired of that as well. I want to use the services available to me in my situation now to IMPROVE our lives. Financially, Emotionally, Spiritually & Physically. I need to give my life an overhaul... wanna come along for the ride?
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Remember that no one can make you feel inferior without your consent. (Elanor Roosevelt). My sisters have been seriously yelling at me about everything lately. At first, it really got to me until I realized I was LETTING them get to me. Ignore anyone who makes you feel worthless, you aren't worthless! You're priceless! :)
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